To those of you who commented that you hated where I left it yesterday, I apologize. When I started that post, it wasn't my intention to stop at that point. Actually, I was planning to go on and explain what was in the envelope, and how it changed everything I had always believed about my birth situation.
But, as it turns out, I am incredibly long-winded, and the post turned out way too long. Imagine. Me, long-winded (Hallie, don't say anything). So I stopped. And to my great astonishment, several of you said you couldn't wait to find out the rest. I'm sorry to say that I am not going to continue that part of the story until Monday. It may seem ridiculous, but some of this stuff I've been writing is exhausting. I think I'm getting feelings out that have been sort of buried for a while, and I decided to give myself a break on weekends, at least for now.
I will still post on weekends, but it will be something short, light or funny, or like this one, where I speak directly to you all. I want to tell you how incredibly grateful I am that you are there. The blogging community is full of amazing, supportive people who are so willing to open their hearts. I thank you for coming along with me.
Only 41 more days until January 2nd!
It Rained All Day
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I know what you mean about being exhausted by what you are writing. It is such an emotionally charged thing; trust me, Mel, if it was me? I'd be in the fetal position sucking my thumb after these posts. Heavy stuff. But, oh so healing.
And I don't know exactly what it is about blog friends, but they are the absolute best. Since I've been blogging, there have been several situations that I keep needing to go over and over. Most people, face-to-face, would roll their eyes and have that "oh no, here she goes again" look. But not in the blogosphere. These are people who stick by you. Including me.
I'm glad you're blogging on weekends; so do I. If all else fails, we can comment over and over to each other...which we might just end up doing every day of the week anyway. BWAHAHAHA! It's great to get to communicate with you whenever I want (stopping short of being stalker-like, hopefully)!!! :)
NaBloPoMo = National Blog Posting Month. You sign up to post each day that month. This is the first time I've ever done it, but it's been around for a long time. When you sign up, you can have your blog listed on the blogroll on nablopomo.com and then more people can visit you; I think that part is for people who are earning money blogging by having ads, etc. I dont' know much about that because I blog strictly for enjoyment, but I assume that's what it's mostly about. If you want to check it out more, just go to nablopomo.com or you can click on the widget on my blog...
SHould you two get a room? I mean jeesh....all this chatting back and forth.
MET...
2 things...
you ARE long winded (but I like that)
and
you love a dramatic pause...
so I'm sure on some level deep down you knew exaclty what you were doing with that dramatic ending!
But it's ok - cuz you've got all your peeps salivating for more!
(Bet Andy is jealous!) :)
H
ME...make it a good weekend!
~AirmanMom returning to her blog...
I am so sitting on th eedge of my seat because I get to RE-LIVE this emotional roller coaster with you... and I am finding that i recall some things that during the ride I did not have time to take out and evaluate and process because once on the ride and strapped in it does not slow down much at all... you have the hurry up and wait moments but your emotions are still running rampant...and ITS NOT FAIR making me wait until MONDAY!!!! I read blogs all weekend ... LOLOLOL ok I will TRY to be patient!
And then I see there is more waiting! Hehehe.
I understand the exhaustion. Its your story and it will come in your time.
Take care! Looking forward to Monday!!! I'm adding you to my blogroll so I can see your post when it pops up!
So would you call this a non-blog? I think everyone that reads (or writes)blogs likes the cliff-hanger thing every now and then and you did it up right.
When everybody groans you know you did good.
Helen
I too understand how draining blogging can be. I am just looking forward to hearing all about it monday :) Have a great one! See you Monday! ;)
M.E., thanks for stopping by...I'm happy to 'meet' you. I too am glad that you have got on the blog-bandwagon. It is addicting, therapeutic, exhausting, frustrating and eventually healing. I am still trying to find my way---my place here in the blogosphere, still uneasy at how much I want to share. But so far it has been one of the best things i've ever done for myself. So jump on board and know that you are not walking this journey alone and that this is a safe place to be. Take care and have a good weekend.
Corrine and I have completed the state-mandated month-long course on adoption and the stuff they teach you is mentally draining (for example, upwards of 65 percent of the children placed in foster/adoptive homes have been abused emotionally, physically or sexually - and that's a conservative estimate)
So my hat is off to you, MET, for doing this. For talking about your own adoption "story" and the as-yet finished journey (does it ever really finish?)
As much as I like to joke, there is no punchline today. Our journey to adopting a child has been exciting, educating, frustrating, but more than anything, sobering.
Your comments, your advice to us as adoptive parents, are nuggets of gold, believe me.
We were all disappointed in the cliffhanger, but it makes sense to only write that emotionally draining stuff during the week. You are able to relax on the weekends then, so enjoy yourself.
COmpletely understand how draining this must be for you. All these feelings bubbling to the surface again. Take as much time as you need. You've got us all hooked now, we aren't going anywhere. :)
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