Thursday, February 26, 2009

Lady sings the blues

Melancholy is my mood today. I am feeling a tad discouraged.

I’m still unemployed, and I shouldn’t be. I’m talented and smart and a college graduate. I should have an awesome job by now.

I haven’t heard from my birth mother, and I thought I would by now. It’s been weeks. She should call me. Or write me. Or at least send some medical information.


I’m laid up and can’t walk (don’t ask!) and I hate being stuck at home on the couch. I need to be out and about, distracting myself from my own misery with people and activity.

But I can’t. So, in typical ME fashion, I’ve decided to avoid thinking about the whole mess. I am watching everything on my DVR – hours and hours of shows I recorded to watch some time when I had a minute. Well, I have a minute. I have lots of minutes.

I did a jigsaw puzzle. I love puzzles, and have several of them in the closet, waiting for time to put them together. Well, I have time to put them together.

I knitted some really nice socks with soft gray Alpaca yarn and started knitting a ribbon scarf with some funky ribbon yarn I got from the dollar store. Hey, I know what you’re thinking – alpaca yarn and cheapo dollar store yarn are very different, but that’s me – a real renaissance woman. I’m sure I mentioned it before.

I read three books in the last week. One was beautiful fiction, one was an amazing true story, and one was kinda trashy. I won’t tell you which one I liked the most.

I joined Facebook. I really think I am too old to be on Facebook, but I have secured a promise from Hallie that she will teach me everything I need to know. Maybe she can teach me how to seem younger while she’s at it.

I’ve been going through old photos – kind of an ongoing project to rescue my pictures from those horrible albums with the sticky pages and plastic sheets that they didn’t warn us about a hundred years ago. If I had known those nifty albums would eat my pictures, I would never have put them in there in the first place! Anyway, I’ve re-discovered some terrific family photos, and the memories to go with them. You’ll probably get to see a few of them now and again.

I’ll leave you with this photo of me, back when life was simple. When there were no piles of snow to shovel off the roof. No wonder I’m smiling!

22 comments:

Wonderful World of Weiners said...

Not only will I teach you FB, I will do it with a smile on my face and a spring in my step!! Cuz that's what us young folks do.

Btw, having talked to you at length last night, you have EVERY right to be funktified right now. (that's my new favortie word) Your foot injury alone is enough to bring your general jovial mood (laughed even as I typed that!) down.

I DO appreciate your adorable efforts to answer the phone in a chipper fashion. You did good girl!

Need a ride anywhere? Anywhere at all?

I'm here for ya, by meloncholy ME gal.

H :)

Scriptor Senex said...

And a lovely smile it is too!

It's always a bad sign when one starts reminiscing about the good old days. I know, I do it all the time.... And then looking into the future invokes worry while looking at the present can be depressing... Best just not to think! :-)

Hope you are feeling better soon!

Dave King said...

I, too, reminisce about the good ole days - what weren't that good, anyway. It can be a bad thing, but it can be turned to good account I think. You've just got to convince yourself somehow that they will return. My daughter-in-law's friend had ME and was almost totally incapacitated for a time, but did get through it. So will you, I am sure.

Elenka said...

You're smiling cause you don't have a care in the world. That would make anyone smile.
My how life changes...
(MELT. MELT. MELT !!)

Andrew Scott Turner said...

I can see SOOO you reading the trashy novel.

I had a dream about our former boss asking us both back to work.

That just cheers you right up, doesn't it?

I miss lobster luncheons on the pond with our friend VL...

:-(

Andrew Scott Turner said...

Okay, read my last post carefully and then tell me why I consider myself a writer.

Jesus...

AirmanMom said...

ME...my sailor husband tells me at times that life is like a sh%# sandwich... some days you get more bread, some days you get more......
I'm in Portsmouth, need a loaf of bread?
I wish you a day filled with the same carefree smile, you wore in that picture!

~AM

Under the Influence said...

I love FB and I am old(er), too!

Hang in there. Hopefully warmer weather and sunshine is right around the corner, along with a great job, of course.

Alice said...

Well atleast the melencholy hit during the winter when you can snuggle down with a good book and bad tv. (and a trashy novel, here and there). Hope things improve, although I know they will. Hang in there girl. And maybe I'll find you on Facebook! (I'm already one of Hallie's friends.) :)

for a different kind of girl said...

When I was laid up with my annoying back and leg problems, I watched things on TV that I never would if I could have run away and escape. I feel your pain! Well, I don't feel your actual pain, but I had mine for so long that I hope yours hurries up and disappears.

Paintball Dude said...

"Paintball Dudes Mom" again. All I have to say is... ADORABLE!

Laura ~Peach~ said...

i can so feel you. Love the old pic and love recalling the carefree days too... I miss them.

Mary Lee said...

Winter needs to end.... until it does, enjoy MORE trashy novels.. I love to escape into another world for awhile to give my roaming mind rest and relief. They always end in a happily ever after. Which is totally silly, but hey, happily is subject

Becca said...

Oh my goodness you were a cutie!!!

sorry you're down.

knittergran said...

Sorry you're kind of down. But just spoil yourself for a few days and see if that doesn't help some. Hot tea, books, tv, knitting-all good things.
I linked to you today-I am trying to knit without a counter. Cringe...
But I'm trying-hope you enjoy the pattern-you can do the instep with or without the ribbing. (But you probably already knew that-sorry, it's just the teacher in me.)

Lynn said...

You were a cutie...keep your chin up...it will be spring sooner than you think...being laid up is the pits but at least you are using you time well !

Midwest Mommy said...

Oh sometimes I do wish to go back to when I had my carefree years! Not that my life is bad or anything but just a time when there were no bills, house, water heaters to worry about.

Robin said...

it amazes me how much you look like you. does that make sense?

you should add me as a facebook friend. and then you'd get more insight into my boring life than anyone wants....

seriously. facebook is fun...and can become addicting.

claudia said...

I'm on Facebook now too. I think I joined two or three days ago. Peer pressure, ya know! And I am older than a lot of you spring chickens!
I hope you get to feeling better. I always cherished my down time, because I could do the things like you are doing now. So heal well, take advantage of the tiem you have to read, nap, watch
tv and read trashy novels. Soon, before you know it you will be back on your feet with a job to keep you so busy, you'll wish for some time to yourself!
Love Ya! By the way that's a cute picture of you!

Merrily Down the Stream said...

What a sweet photo! Hope you mend quickly.

Reddirt Woman said...

I'm right there with you M.E. I think I broke my toe yesterday. I've spent as much time as I could today with my foot up. In between digging up a willow and planting it in a different place, firing up the mower and filling the lawn roller full of water so I could roll some paths in our totally dug up garden area. I imagine it is as difficult for you to walk in the snow as it is for me to walk in the garden dirt that was tilled to about 8" deep.

Owwwwww. Get back on your feet, girl...Soon.

Vegas Princess said...

You're on FB! Ahhhh, I must friend you! :)

We all go through the funk stages and you have every right to be in one with all you are dealing with. Don't worry, it will pass. In the meantime, we will all be here to keep you entertained.

P.S. Love your new layout look!