Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Jitterbug

I feel like a broken record, but I have nothing new and interesting to report. I am so jittery that at times I feel I might break into a million pieces.

I'm trying to do normal things - cook and clean, laundry, vacuuming - but it's not enough to keep my mind from thinking about Friday.

Here's an example of my thought processes:

I need to switch the clothes from the washer to the dryer. I wonder what I should wear on Friday? It's likely to be cold and involve a wait outside. Augusta's always windy. I wonder how many people will be there? I've got to turn the TV on. Maybe it will keep me occupied. What if the media shows up on Friday? There's been a fair amount of news coverage. That changes my whole wardrobe idea. I've got to talk to someone, but I don't have anything to say, really, so how can I call anyone? Let me put these dishes away. Maybe I should check to make sure all my papers are in the folder. I better check the list in my email again to make sure I have everything I need. And what time did they say we could arrive? Should I put the folder in the car so that I don't forget it?

And on, and on, and on.

I wonder if this is what it's like to be crazy. And not in a good, Wild & Crazy, way.

19 comments:

kim-d said...

Ummm? That's my brain on a good day! Seriously, I can't even remember a time when I had a complete, uninterrupted thought. You should hear the conversation between me and my also-menopausal friend; we laugh because our conversations are only coherent to us. Anybody any younger would definitely not understand, but we understand each other perfectly. So, if this doesn't stop for ya after Friday, I'll give you my phone number and you can call me and we will babble to each other. The good part is, you cover lots of subjects. BWAHAHAHA!

At least you're remembering about transferring the clothes from the washer to the dryer; it sometimes takes me a day or two, then I rewash them, then...

Ah, fun times. And I used to have such a good memory. At least I think I did. I should probably work, since that's where I am. A little more coffee would be good, though.

See what I mean? I don't really have anything much to say, either. So it's really rather amazing how long this comment is.

I understand completely, ME!!!

Andrew Scott Turner said...

Doesn't it feel like you can HEAR the second hand on the clock?

Tick

Tick

Tick

If you;re out and about, come to Buckfield where time actually stands still. You can visit with the loony bin here, and that's a formal invitation.

Mabry's gamma said...

Friday must be very exciting for you. I hope you get all your answers.

As for your mind and rambling thoughts...been there done that every day for the last...hmmm...now how many years has that been??? So please don't ever feel like you have nothing to say and your mind is just racing with random thoughts, we bloggers are here for ya.

Wonderful World of Weiners said...

The media WILL be there so dress accordingly. I don't want to have to tell people, "I know that woman on TV waiting to get her real birth certificate. You know, the one wearing mismatched patterns and dressed like it's summer although she KNEW it would be windy in Augusta!!"

Hallie

claudia said...

Oh my goodness, I can so relate to your thought processes, only like Kim-D, that's my normal state of mind, just trying to get though a day off at home. At work, I'm a little more organized!
At any rate, we are all here for you and I for one am waiting excitedly to see how things go for you!

AirmanMom said...

ME...you sound perfectly normal to me. Your moment is almost here, my prayers are in full force for you!
Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!

~AirmanMom returning to her blog...

Corrine said...

C'mon down...over..up...whatever!
If you can stand the noises!

Alice said...

I'm like kim-d - you sound like my thought pattern on any given day. So if that's crazy...let me be the first to welcome you to this side. :) I'm so excited and nervous for you for Friday. I hope that it turns out as you hope.

Under the Influence said...

Hang in there - it's almost here!

Laura ~Peach~ said...

been there done it and survived... breathe deep... maybe tke a paper bag to breathe into or puke into or both but dont breathe into it after you puke into it ok... and like alice says welcome to our side :) giggles... you can call me ( i know i offer that option on a regular basis but it is because i mean it...) anyway Happy New Years eve and I am so excited for FRiday!!!! PS go see Andrew he just sounds like such a fun guy and what a great family he has there to distract you for a bit!
HUGSSSSSSSSSS Laura

Tonjia said...

Hi Mary Ellen, I am brand new to your blog, and it looks like I showed up at a very scary time for you.

I hope it helps to know that positive thoughts are headed your way for Friday, with a prayer or two thrown in for good measure.

My mom found her birth mother (who had abandoned her when she was an infant) when she was 50. It was a good outcome, and I got to meet my grandmother. I hope yours is just as good.

knittergran said...

Wow...what a day Friday will be. A great start to a great new year, I hope!

Becca said...

take a deep cleansing breath and a stiff drink (or a nap).

gosh, I'm nervous FOR you!

gin said...

This is normal. You are excited, anxious, nervous, scared, and everything else all rolled into one. I can't wait to check in on you Friday!!

jojo said...

crazy...in the best of all possible ways. Jittering for and with ya...

Odette said...

OOOHHHH Crunch time! So so so exciting! I am excited just thinking about it! :) :) :) Soo soo happy that you're soooo close to the answers you seek! :) xoxoxo

Robin said...

no, it's what it's like to be nervous. everything will be great but you'll be on pins & needles til Friday. don't try to stop thinking about it because you know, you can't. so it's only ONE more day. good luck, i'll be thinking about you and waiting to read the exciting news!

katy said...

My normal state of mind also but somehow I know this is different. You are about to learn so much and it has to be exciting and scary. I will be waiting for your update....I hope your New Year starts off great and ends even better.

kim-d said...

Happy New Year, Mary Ellen! :)

Tomorrow. Tomorrow. OMG, IT'S TOMORROW!!!